Thursday, October 25, 2012

Self Discovery: be the best you

I've always been a high strung person, letting my stress and anxiety get the best of me. Unfortunately, after years of allowing this to happen and not doing anything to change it, I recently "hit rock bottom" and lost some important people in my life. Of course, this is not good for my stress and anxiety. However, it allowed me an opportunity to finally work on me and coping with my emotions. Sometimes it takes a really good fall to know where you stand. I think for some people, at least in my case, you have to be stripped of everything to realize everything that you had. If I could go back, I would have been more patient and not let my stress and anxiety ruin it all. Life doesn't have a rewind button though. So what is a person to do?

For me, I found several outlets to focus on me and eliminating my stress and anxiety: writing, positive thinking, and focusing on health and fitness. I think the most beneficial outlet I found, was writing. Hint's my blog title, "Writing is Proving to be Therapeutic". The one person, more than any other, that you can be most honest with is yourself. Through writing, I have been able to search deep in myself to find where these issues came from and why I felt the need to lash out at those around me. I won't go into all those details of my self discovery. My point is that writing can greatly help in seeing the bigger picture and letting your emotions go.

When you feel bad about yourself and your insecurities, weaknesses, or shortcomings, you are projecting that to others. In order to live a fulfilling life, you have to have a positive outlet in order to survive. Who wants to be around a person who is always jaded and brings those around them down; unfortunately, I was that type of person. I see what I did and feel so disappointed in myself. That was not the type of person I wanted to be. Through writing, I was able to discover these weaknesses and start to find myself again. Everyday, is a new beginning and another opportunity to be better than you were yesterday. Starting off each day with that motto, in my head, has helped me let go of the negative energy I used to carry around for so long. I've learned that all you can do is take the past mistakes and not let them define you; learn from mistakes, grow, and don't forget what it taught you. Having a positive outlook on life is going to build confidence, strengthen you, and bring success.

 Lastly, focus on you and your overall health and fitness. With my insecurities, stress, and anxiety, I felt so overwhelmed with life, in general, that I was just barely living each day. I found the best thing I could do for my mind, body, and soul, was to focus my time and energy on something that would better every aspect of my life. I've found spending time going on walks, jogging, and biking to relieve a lot of stress and tension I was feeling. I feel more refreshed. My stress and anxiety is declining because I'm finding new ways to release it. Stress and anxiety is a huge burden, and I don't want it in my live or in lives of those I love most. Additionally, I always had relatively healthy eating habits but I've decided to dedicated more time into an even healthier food lifestyle.

When you are able to take a step back and look at your life, you see so much about yourself. Of course, I still miss the live I had and people in it, but I don't have any control over that. I can only hope that one day that the people I lost can give me another opportunity to prove that I'm changing and growing. I feel like by the time I get the opportunity to be in their life, they will see how much I have changed and can contribute to bettering their life, too. One can hope. The way I see it is, we all make mistakes, and hopefully, one day, they will see how far I've come. In the mean time, just keep focusing on you and bettering yourself each day and let the stress and anxiety go. Focus your energy on what really matters, in order to truly live.




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